He is a worm , Cărtărescu thought, waking in his armchair, a half-drunk glass of ouzo sweating on the side table. A worm chewing through the apple of my brain.
Iona, who had lived with the great hallucinator for four decades, did what she always did: she made tea. But when she poured it, the liquid rose not as steam but as a column of recrystallized time, and in that column, for just a moment, she saw Theodoros. He was climbing a ladder made of her husband’s broken ribs, and he was smiling. The night of the arrival, Cărtărescu undressed in the study. He removed his clothes, then his skin—not metaphorically. The skin came off like a silk robe, revealing a second body underneath: a body of manuscript pages, densely written, each sentence a vein, each paragraph an organ. He stood there, a man made of his own books, and waited. mircea cartarescu theodoros
The study fell silent. The gramophone played a single note, then stopped. On the desk, the sparrow’s pearl cracked open, and Constantinople burned again, and burned, and burned, until the only thing left was the faint, almost imperceptible smell of honey and ouzo and the distant, laughing voice of a man who had once been a boy burying a bird in a Bucharest courtyard. He is a worm , Cărtărescu thought, waking
Cărtărescu woke with a jolt. On his desk, the dead sparrow he had buried in 1964 lay on its back, its little feet curled, its breastbone split open to reveal a pearl the size of a lentil. Inside the pearl, a miniature city: Constantinople, 1204, on the night of the sack. And walking through the flames, untouched, carrying a scroll of papyrus, was Theodoros. The transformation became physical. One morning, Cărtărescu looked in the mirror and saw that his left eye had turned the color of a Byzantine icon’s background—that impossible gold that is not gold but the absence of shadow. When he blinked, he saw through the other eye: the real Bucharest, gray and damp, but overlaid with a second Bucharest, a city of domes and hanging gardens, where men in silk robes walked backward to keep time from moving forward. But when she poured it, the liquid rose
Outside, the fog lifted. Bucharest stretched its thousand cracked bones. And somewhere in the negative space between a sigh and a sentence, Mircea Cărtărescu and Theodoros walked together through a city that had never been built, constructing it with every step.