The music is still ringing in my ears. A hollow, plastic beat. My cheeks ache. Not from genuine laughter—I’ve forgotten what that feels like—but from the muscles I’ve held in a perfect, rigid arc for four hours.
So I will wipe the mascara that ran an hour ago. I will start the car. I will go home and feed the cat. And tomorrow morning, I will open the closet, pick out a dress, and pick out a smile. Muskaanein Jhooti Hai
It has to.
Look at the photograph they just posted. There I am, holding a champagne flute I haven’t drunk from, throwing my head back as if the venture capitalist just told the funniest joke in the world. He didn’t. He was explaining how he “almost” invested in a competitor. The smile on my face? A masterpiece of forgery. Painted on with the precision of a liar. The music is still ringing in my ears
Tonight, in the rearview mirror, I watch my own face relax. The corners of my mouth fall. The forehead uncreases. The mask slides off and lands in my lap. And beneath it… there is nothing. No sadness, even. Just a deep, exhausted silence. The face of a soldier returning from a battle no one knew was being fought. Not from genuine laughter—I’ve forgotten what that feels
We are a society of beautiful ruins hiding behind bright filters. My mother calls. “Beta, you look so happy in the photos!” I don’t tell her that happiness now feels like a language I once knew but forgot how to speak. I just send her a smiling emoji. She sends one back. Two masks kissing across a digital wire.