I left the party early. I drove home through the dark streets, past the houses with their lighted windows, past the trees with their bare branches, past the stars with their cold, distant light. I parked the car in the driveway, and I sat there for a long time, looking at my house. The lights were off. My wife and children were asleep. The dog was asleep. The cat was asleep. Everything was quiet. Everything was still. And I thought, This is my life. This is the only life I will ever have. And I felt nothing. Not sadness, not joy, not gratitude, not regret. Just nothing. A great, empty, peaceful nothing.

“I asked her what she meant by ‘innocence.’ She looked at me for a long time, and then she said, ‘Innocence is the belief that something is true because you want it to be true. It is the belief that the world is good because you are good. It is the belief that the people you love will never hurt you, and that the people you hate will never win. It is a beautiful belief, and it is always wrong.’”

He looked at me, and his eyes were cold. “It wasn’t a story,” he said. “It was the truth.”